My sleep schedule is completely thrown since coming back to Korea, and I can't seem to get onto a regular schedule. So I pulled an all-nighter last night and didn't sleep~ Woohoo
I was watching my cat (as you do when you're a cat owner), and when he yawned, I realized I haven't been releasing my jaw very well in my practice. (Weird place to get a revelation, but I'll take it.) So I experimented with that, careful not to jam my jaw down but to allow more space between the back molars. This helped a lot, and even though my voice still got a little fatigued (it's driving me a little bonkers), it was better than it's been the last couple days.
I also focused on singing on the motion of the inhale, and keeping this in mind helps me to prevent "punting" my air whenever there's a small/large jump in pitch.
As I'm writing this, I'm realizing that I forgot to "focus on the good," so I'll try and implement that into later practice.
I'm realizing that, in my attempt to find the "model" behavior, I get scared of making mistakes because I'm so paranoid of practicing the wrong thing. I need to figure out the difference between being impatient and being open to experimentation.
Because these last couple days have been a bit less than ideal in terms of practice, I'm observing a lot of fear in myself as I approach practice. I'm scared of practicing incorrectly (mostly because I get immediate negative results--a tired voice), rather than getting excited to try new things. I need to take some time before practicing to get into the correct mindset, which is honestly the hardest part of practice, and I guess I just needed to remind myself of that.
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